I am feeling all achy and worn out and yet I know I should be getting things done. My kids both have tomorrow off so it feels more like a friday-and a lazy one at that. My first attempt at painting came up lousy today, but I looked at it as a learning process and kept at it until I produced something that looked somewhat like what I was aiming for!!!! and now I will gesso that out of my mind and off of my canvas-wouldn't it be great if we could just paint over our past life mistakes with a good coat of white and have a do-over!!

There was a call for art in a Newsletter I get that asked for Circus art-things that remind you of an amusement park. So I thought it might be fun. But as I started it I thought-really??? Do I really want to paint to an outside purpose for a show I may not get into but if I do I have to pay a fee???? On the other hand I think in illustrations so it was fun to whip this painting out of my head-in fact I have more fun doing that than alot of stuff-I think I will start to do illustrations for my own book. Self publishing is so easy now. I started working on a fairy coloring book and having lots of fun...and then came that thought..you know..what am I doing this for..who cares. Well, I care its fun and it can be sent out to all the little people in my life.....and that makes them happy!!!!! Off to ebay to post paintings!!! The sun is shining and the snow is melting

A year ago today that my sweet baby girl Abbie from next door died-any wonder I started painting angels today without even thinking about it??? I have missed that little girl more than I can say and my heart is torn to shreds for her parents. I can't imagine what they feel every day-I don't think time HEALS I think you only learn to deal with it.....and I think you cling to the lessons someone left you and maybe life becomes a little bit sweeter and maybe you are more tender with the people that show up in your life. And here is another thing I have realized-at the same time I have little time to spend with people who are manipulative and controlling....I no longer want to expose myself to that or the hurt that comes from it. Life is too short, it is too easy to dump your pain on someone else and I won't be around that anymore. There are so many sweet things that to wrap your heat in thorns and demands and the way you think things SHOULD be as opposed to the way they are-therein lies a dangerous path. I am glad that that little girl touched my heart and there will forever be a piece of it missing becaus eshe left us too soon...

I am trying new things all the time..and old things are coming back. I cleaned out my closet and gave away some old stuff in an effort to create new in my life-=too many selfhelp shows+= only to find I really needed some of it and don't have the budget to replace it. Funny how you think you are doing something great for yourself and suddenly-boom-comes back to get you!! Any way from the sculptures I have itched to do more gold and wings and whimsy-hence this angel!

today I got to spend all day fooling around with my paper machie girls and painting and it was sooo much fun!!!!!!!!!!!! I made a huge mess and everyone is eating hot dogs tonight but I messed around making wings and clay baked stars and birds and glittered and painted and if thats all I got to do for the rest of my life I would be in heaven

To wing or not to wing?? I think I will wing her as she needs a little more glitz-where would I be without glitter. I wish I could glitter myself every morning-it just seems so special. Just gives everything a magic sparkle that pleases the eye. When the trees are glittered with that icy snow-doesn't it just make the whole world seem enchanted???? i hope my little guys do that

Here is another Mothers Day painting. I love the tender moments-although maybe I should do one of my 14 year old and I have an argument in the car while she texts and I listen to NPR-maybe a little more realistic!!??