Quick sketch in between learning lines...did not have any good pencils in the house and the ones I had were dull..ran around actually yelling a sharpener, a sharpener my kingdom for a sharpener!!When worlds collide...
One of my all time favorite movies is Mary Poppins, I always thought the bird lady was so lovely and so melancholy..I made up a story that she had a good home to go to and was well loved so I would feel better when it came to her part. I just saw the Tippi Hendren Barbie from the birds, so I had birds on the mind..

gotta go learn those lines

Re opened my etsy shop!!  Why, I imagine you asking me, if indeed you would, why did you let it close???  Because I never made that many sales??  Because you are an untalented wanna be??  Because someone may find out you are an impostor?? Or you were lazy..or you thought what is the point??

D. All of the Above

But guess what-I don't care any more..because bottom line I have a blast doing it AND when I do sell something (which I do) I often get the best responses to my work and it warms my heart...
To that end whipped out some fun fairies today, these are really, really small (2.5 x 3.5) and its a challenge to work that small.  So onward and upward!!  And tomorrow, who knows what I will come up with!!!

Uninspiring day..one of those days where one starts to look at the want ads and wonder why keep trying. Would a steady paycheck make so much difference that I could leave all these art thoughts behind? Thats okay, this too shall pass, I know that now, but when my ideas outweigh my skills I sometimes want to pull the covers over my head instead of plodding on..sio I made myself sit and just play with pastels for a while......

Working on a really cool idea that has me excited-to do with trains and this new notion (to me) of Ombro Theatre. I stumbled upon it accidentally and now I am waking up in the middle of the night with all sorts of ideas that were sparked by this simple yet amazing technique. I love when all seemingly scattered pieces of all the things I love to do come together and I just do it without worrying about how GOOD it will be.....onward and upward

What if all your fears were knocked down and you lived in the moment,choosing what makes you happy, rejecting the old ideas the old crazy rules you imposed on yourself.  Started acting as if those old rules were nothing, wondered why they ever kept you in a prison, one you made for yourself and then remained miserable in.  I am having those moments and it is exhilarating and scary in a different way.  I wish I could bottle this so when I have doubts I could reapply this self awareness....
What if you choose to surround yourself with only the people who lifted you up and engaged and challenged and cared, and those that you run after begging for a crumb of friendship or notice became so unimportant....I am going to remember this, this is how I will live...and as I do..it is unbelievable what shows up in your world to support you

There is no finish line, there is no end, its all about process and growing.  I keep thinking there will be a moment when you WIN, when you hit the point where everything from here on will be golden.  When you decide who exactly you are, what it is that you do, and where you are going.  For me, these are dangerous illusions.  I am learning you just have to be,right here, right now . There is no shame in continuing to go after your dreams.....even if you never get to where you thought you wanted to be, if you are lucky,you see all the things you are gathering along the way..........PROCESS-with a nod to KH who is wise.... 

Still in a creative funk but determined to keep working, despite that lack of confidence.  So I went up to the loft and worked on an altoid box project and then, finding myself cruelly judging , took a breath walked away and went back to my charcoal. That helped, and I wrote a bit and THAT helped....that and the knowledge of how lucky and privileged I am to have time to worry about things like this.  ONWARD!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!