Monday, May 24, 2010

We drove to Iowa to the Amana Colonies. It was a great little overnight. The garden store was one of the most amazing sites-lush, full baskets of flowers and great prices. I should have taken pictures but was too busy looking. Which lead me to this thought-Have I been so busy trying to BE someone that I forgot to live my life? and the answer is quite a profound thought and it hit me right between the eyes and hit me hard. What I love to do I always feel is a reward for doing what I don't want to do. I feel guilty and somehow ashamed of doing what I love....or if I can't make money doing something then what is the point? I have been musing on this mind set and how I can change it. It is a really interesting piece of information about myself and I think it may be very freeing in the end......can I just do what I love and love doing it........why not?