Wed The first day of Obama

Another abandoned farmhouse-just had to whip something out to feel like I can finish as I have two big pieces I am working on that are taking forever!!!!! But I am loving every minute of it-its just that I sometimes tend to rush to finish so I have to direct that energy.....doesn't it just feel more hopeful out????????

January 19, 2009

I am in such need of acrylics-I am surprised I could finish this. There is a long list of what I need-but then, look what I can do with what I have. Life Lesson??? I think so!!! I am in the middle of two paintings that are coming out nicely, but I like to prime the pump so to speak with these little pieces.

My dog and I just had a long lover look between us, each pretending to love the other when we really knew it was a battle of wills over the latest thing he has got in his mouth. This time it is a velcro thing and I have no idea where he got it. I think he opens drawers.....ah life..

This is an eight by ten acrylic on canvas panel.

January 14,2009

I am still playing with the cards-I love it .......it is cold and I am painting with fall colors. Perhaps I am trying to warm myself with color. I have a big painting I am working on but
creating my own little gallery is just a hoot. Kids are home sick which makes my routine fall away, but I am starting to think that is a good thing. Perhaps our routines trap us in subtle ways that affect our enjoyment...why do we put off joy so the house can be clean??? Is there joy in mess? I believe so.....

January 12, 2009



Oh way too much fun with my new aeco cards-these are little trading card sized paintings that artists trade and sell-think baseball cards!!!!! The kids are sick today so I didn't do my lady I am working on as I need to get in the zone and have no little people yelling MAMA at me-but these little guys were fun!!!! My 5th grade teacher called me today and just hearing her voice made me feel all squishy and loved. Let us not forget the people who change out lives just because we are. That is a gift that has saved me more than once!!!!!

January 7,2009

I cannot explain why I do what I do. I wonder about that. Is it important to figure out your purpose behind things-or is just DOING enough. In the moment of doing it is truly wonderful and then I worry...is this worth something...am I working toward something...how dare I be happy doing something, shouldn't I suffer and am I making myself suffer over it by wondering what it is worth-ah, what a tangled web we weave.......and why can't my brain just take a break.

It is cold and this mornign tons of little kids were sliding down the hallways on the way to class. It was very sweet as they all clung to each other and watched out for and warned each other.

Maybe that is what we should all do every day!!!

Jan 6,2009

I am so tired, tired in my bones.....tired of fighting and trying to change myself. Tired of trying to prove who I am. Maybe instead of resolutions we should give ourselves a pat on the back for everything we have dared to do the previous year instead of picking at our 'faults'. What is a fault anyway? Just a bad label for something? Who shoulds on us-well, ourselves mostly. So if I could, I would take an old chair from my past drag it into this field and lie there with the sun on my face listening to the quiet, all by myself...and the critic inside me would stay behind for awhile.....and maybe Mr Rogers would stop by for a while offer me his sweater and just sit quietly beside me-like a good neighbor......

January 4, 2009

Instant Ancestor-

This is a 2x2 acrylic on canvas that I am doing as an idea for art-o-mat. There will be an insert telling the history of this woman and the life she lead-and it is gonna be really funny. I think it is a great idea and will make it part of my sales at art fairs.
The new year has started with a nice interest in some of my art and my own conviction that that is what makes me happiest. I am soooooo soooooo sooooo looking forward to my darling family going back to the routine tomorrow so I can do more and have more time ALONE-much as I love the social I realize the older I get the more time I need to myself. The more I appreciate just being.............live from your joy is my 2009 motto!!!!