Monday, January 19, 2015
I only had a number 2 pencil and a few minutes, but I like the way it turned out. I have no idea why I am doing this. I just know it helps a bit to write and draw. It makes me forget myself for a while and that is a relief. I would like to forget myself, I would like to find a way to dump all the crap that keeps beating at my door. I do know, thought, steps to take to keep it at bay. Exercise really helps, eating well helps going OUTSIDE helps. We walked around bredesen yesterday,and that was fun. The sun was out , it was warm-well, warm for Jan in MN.. I wonder how many many miles I have logged around that park. How many books on tape I have gone through. I bets its hundreds.
This daily drawing has given me this weird detachment from the outcome. I start to look at shapes and shadows instead of what the object is. It makes it more interesting and less painful. I am lucky, I get to do this and I am sitting near a window in my own house with the sun shing on stained glass that I made.
I wonder why that is never enough.
I think we need to train ourselves to be okay with that. just the being.