Easter today-love the eggs and the baskets and the kids getting excited -my ten year old was in my bed at 600 to "see if I was awake yet' in that loud whisper that kids use. Yesterday I did this on wood I am getting much more confident-or not so demanding-either way I get absorbed faster in the process and I am looking at things differently-where is the negative-how does this curve fit with that triangle. I used to look at the whole, now its pieces, little shapes and colors and it makes the whole better-and there is another life lesson.....

I improved this from yesterday-I have worked with a heavy gel medium which is kind of luscious....I have been walking about without my cast on, I was supposed to wait until the 25th but it seemed to want to be walked on...
and now it seems it doesn't...
Constant ache and pain can be very draining. I did a load of wash, the dishes, cleaned a bathroom and now I think I am pretty much done for the day. My whole body aches from holding it awkwardly as I move. The good news is that I now know this thing will be healed and healed well..the bad news is that I am not a patient person and I better learn pretty damn fast how to be one.....

Jealousy. It rears its little ugly head in the most bizarre ways...my 15 year old had her play this weekend and I was thinking back to our five person theatre dept in high school, our gym stage and folding chair theatre, the one lightbulb on a dimmer....she is in a state of the art theatre that is better than almost every professional theatre I have ever worked in. I couldn't help thinking how much more prepared I would have been had I these advantages beginning in 6th grade. Then as I help to get this new vintage art and inspiration studio store open, the monster once again appears as I look at other works and other peoples skills. Interesting, how it kind of chokes your heart and makes you doubt yourself-but it also has made me question the safety of my decisions and how I approach my life.......I want to get bigger and louder and more colorful in all areas.....and so I started with this flower..from every little step something comes nearer

Bad picture cropping but this is a floorcloth that I made today,it was fun and I think came out quite well. I am trying to figure out from a marketing standpoint what product would go over well that I actually like to make. I still have to figure out what color I am going to do with the middle rectangle-I was thinking of a deep green but that might be too dark..I will have to live with it for awhile. And now I better go put up my poor foot...sigh...

I just had to experiment with this new idea, even if I have to crawl and get sequins, or glitter or lace-its not easy when you are working by the seat of your pants and incorporating all sorts of elements into one piece on one leg!. I still have to get downstairs for glue and glitter and modge podge but I think I will wait until I can order the kids around. It takes me so long to go down and up the stairs. It reminds me of when the kids were babies and they needed to do it all by themselves but it took so dang long and I would walk behind them so they didn't fall. Which brings up a lovely memory of my Uncle George at 76 walking bent over behind my daughter every time she got up to try to walk, he could not bear to see her fall. It makes me cry and laugh at the same time......ooo-good idea for a painting

Today was a little revelation...found out that this ankle thing is more serious than I thought, It will take more time and more steps than I imagined. Which made me have to cancel a show in April, which made me think about choices we make and the choices made for us. Or do we set ourselves up for things? I hate to think that some part of me needed a rest so I subconsciously did this break. I do know that while I was in pain and needed to just sit on the couch and veg I liked it-for about a week. It was nice to just shut down. I also think I should be using this time wisely and thinking about stuff and coming to huge life affirming nuggets that I will write about and become a best seller and travel and talk about my journey...but I get tired of that so I paint, and think up things to make. Maybe that is my revelation.........I like to make things.......so embrace it and move forward-slowly..on crutches for a few more weeks....

I am so excited about my new venture-in april I will be having a long time dream come true-I will be involved in a occasional shop with studio space and class offerings! It is located in Edina and the only thing that is stopping me from doing all I want to prepare for it is this damn ankle. Its going to be vintage-art-inspiration and I am dying to haul down an old desk and a shelf from the garage and start painting these great peices and finding more-but I can barely hop to the bathroom..so i AM TRYING TO CONCENTRATE ON PAITING FOR MOTHERs day cards and some ideas I have for 3d stuff-oh, but its hard when the spirit is eillling and the body isn't. i have to be very careful not to overdo and make it worse...